Was kneeling beside the bed talking to God. I looked up and saw the dead orange maple seeds clinging to the bare bone branches. But there in behind was that incredible, trustworthy blue sky backdrop. P.S. We don’t live in Vancouver.
I think that’s what I must look like when I am walking in my own strength, dead and orange and clingy. And there’s the Lord in all His grandeur, vibrant and true blue, waiting in the wings to envelope me in His arms when I finally learn to trust.
Orange and blue. Those colors go together amazingly well, something you don’t see much of in home decor. I smiled as I looked around our bedroom, blue and orange. I know it sounds crazy but I had inadvertently designed our bedroom after the pattern outside our window.
I’ve been feeling kind of sorry for myself, discouraged about some of the gifts God has given, not being used. And yet, as soon as I released that thought I heard Him say something.
You’re right, Lord, I am using them, they are just not fitting into the box we live in. But we don’t LIVE in this box. I’d rather our relationship be ALIVE than do something simply for the sake of doing it, or because it is the trendy thing to do, or for someone else’s approval.
Then I thought about some of the people I’ve been discouraged for, and I heard Him say something else.
You’re right Lord, discouragement is a sign we’re walking in our own strength again. Trusting in our own wisdom. And it’s not even close to wise. Wise people don’t write people off before the end is even here. “It is a good thing you don’t do that to us” I sighed.
“I’m sorry” I said out loud. I got up off my knees and went out into the living room.
I trust you Jesus with what you’ve given me. Thank you for what you are using it for even if I can’t see that right now. I trust your timing and I trust you with those people you’ve put in my life. And as I learn to be more like you, as I talk to you and practice being ALIVE in you, I trust that you’re going to show me some amazing things. You already have.
Orange and Blue.